Month: January 2021

In defense of disorder: on career, creativity, and professionalism

This post is a draft, and currently being written in public (as you can see). This block of text will be removed when it is finished. Professionalism is a lie, build what you love, explore everything. In today’s age of creation, anyone who attempts to tell you otherwise is lying. You’ll end up seeking what you traded for the rest of your life. My friends are starting to think about the job market. These are the most talented, selfless, and energetic people I know who will drop nearly everything in an instant to respond to something they deeply believe in. At the same time, my circles are deferential and somber; they’ve never been one to loudly put things on view. Putting together a portfolio is soul-crushing work, looking back – it’s as if nothing is worthy, and there is so much to do.At Developh (which I started as a high schooler myself), I’m constantly listening to high schoolers dreading college applications, putting their whole selves on pause for a misjudged, glorified persona worthy of the …

The web in decay and the rise of undead content

This post is a draft, and currently being written in public (as you can see). This block of text will be removed when it is finished. (((this one is like super super super unfinished))) I watched a city burn down before my eyes –– each video perfectly designed to twist and sicken me, felt the cries of my country over a cataclysm that covered the sky in black, and every day –– see at the sidelines new and resurfaced videos of death and destruction passing through screens and filters. A death ad infinitum, preserved forever as spectacle for the world. The internet revolution had brought us both the gift of permanence, and an inevitable brainwashing. With the size of the internet doubling every five years and feeds favoring the most masochistic, soulcrushing content that has given us doomscrolling in our vernacular, we live in an age of despair. The worldwide internet exists only as a promise; a medium that has seemingly rendered distance negligible (a hyperlink brings you nearly anywhere) still has us contained to …

Test Stream

Trying something I’ve wanted to do for a long time. Streamed Genshin Impact dailies today, not even my core group of friends follows yet (RIP). https://www.twitch.tv/hotemogf Maybe I can just stream whenever I play videogames… mostly compelled by how I consistently play Genshin Impact. To put an angle to it, Genshin Impact (especially when doing abyss runs) with a lore-focused approach to discussion – I am making my first fansite in over a decade dedicated to its lore, after all. Communities that revolve around something new, like a podcast and constant story in a stream of consciousness form. Indie games! I play a lot of them and would like to record my runs and share them with people. I always recommend games that many people have never heard of, and have humble bundles and libraries to sift through and enjoy. Finishing stuff in a sitting is great for me.I want to rerun Papers, Please and Stephen’s Sausage Roll (among many others), go through the Sokpop collection. My Dwarf Fortress world… (this one I’m afraid of …