college fear tumblr posts around 2017 and 2018 while digging around for stuff to dump in my are.na
six days later i got into my university
six months later collapsing in america
the amount of unnecessary stress we put on 17 and 18 year olds when they truly don’t know anything is disgusting. the world does not get kinder either
trying to think of what i could’ve and should’ve told myself then. the world is unjust and you must try. the trying is more important than any result, and will determine how you endure the harshest parts of it. the systems are broken and you do not deserve it, but in your dreams you become a part of their destruction
the hardest part about doing this thing was doing it alone. it’s hard to think of what to tell myself because i just needed to feel a bit more loved. it felt like all the love came in after the college decision.
what does that make of us